Here I sit, staring at my computer screen, trying to find the words. I’ve had the weirdest past two months. The feelings I feel are always so unexpected. Honestly, I should feel like crap. I should feel stressed, depressed and uninspired. And I do. But I also feel grateful, happy and motivated.
My husband and I have recently gone through a big adjustment. It’s a pretty personal one, so I’m not going to go into details, but let’s just say, it’s really shaken up our entire life. And not in a good way. At least not yet. But in the midst of this major setback, my career seems to be taking off. I find myself excited about how busy I am one minute and frustrated the next. It’s difficult to celebrate my success during such a rough patch. It’s also hard to find the time to celebrate and take a moment to myself. Unfortunately, my life isn’t all about my dream job. I also have a few other side gigs and school to tend to.
Basically, I feel like I’m on this long run. I hate running, but somehow I’ve been managing to run for miles and miles now. And I’m tired. All I want to do is stop to get a drink of water, kick off my running shoes and hop in a cold shower. But I can’t. So, I keep running. Now, what I’m hoping for is that once I am finally finished running, I’ll feel good about it. I’ll feel good about working so hard and just doing it. Nike style.
So, while I may be somewhat absent on the blog, I promise I’m still here and I’m working my
little big toosh off. I’m just trying to figure it all out. Us entrepreneurs don’t have a boss that sits behind a desk all day, telling us what to do. Which is great, but it can be a challenge figuring out how to wear many different hats.
One day, MY business and blog will come first. Or technically second, because family always comes first. But for now, during this rough patch, raking in the dough and finishing school is my biggest concern. Until then, I’m hanging on to these wise words a friend of mine recently told me – “You walk through a valley. You don’t live there.“